I have eczema on my face and it’s been ultra irritate recently. I’ve never been able to figure out why it pops up or rather why it flares up. A dermatologist that I saw when I was a teenager said that the kind of eczema I get is directly related to stress but you know what?
I don’t feel stressed.
I mean, I feel a little stressed about shopping for insurance because apparently I have to get approved to join into a plan outside of the enrollment period so I am waiting on that. I’m not sure how long that takes.
That’s about it.
Well, no, that’s not true. I’m also stressed about a friend.
My eczema has been flared up for weeks now and it just seems to get getting worse. I used a tea tree mask yesterday hoping that it would neutralize my skin and it seemed to work a little bit but then ended up getting super itchy.
Anyways, that’s gross.
The Blazers lost last night by 2 points. It wasn’t a great game by any means. The Blazers were down most of the game but went on a 19-5 run in the 4th quarter and tried their hardest to pull out the W.
Didn’t work though.
I think that the next game is Tuesday. We will see how it goes.
Of course, I fell off the keto wagon. Just like every weekend. I just don’t know why I think every weekend that it’s not going to happen and then BAM, it happens.
So, here we go again…..
Tomorrow is Monday and the start of a new week.
A fresh start.
I have to work at 5:30 in the morning tomorrow and I’m actually upset with myself for agreeing to do it. That means that I have to get up at 3:30am which is just stupid. I should probably be sleeping right now because of how early I have to wake up.
What’s even more dumb, is that I agreed to do it 3 days next week. What a damn weirdo.
I’ve read two books this weekend so far and I started the third. I could probably make a big dent in it before I fall asleep but I decided to watch a few shows on the DVR.
I am still not talking to my mother. She still has not stopped smoking cigarettes and as long as she is smoking, I am not talking to her. I’m just not going to do it. I can’t sit around and pretend that everything is ok when she literally had a fucking stroke from smoking cigarettes. She already had to have MAJOR surgery.
And, she still wants to smoke.
I don’t even fucking care what people say about smoking being so hard to quit because there are ways to get it done. There are tools out there for people to use to quit this deadly habit.
I was a smoker and used a medication to quit. I’m not ashamed to say that. I needed help. There is no way that I could’ve done it on my own. I had tried and tried. Went to e-cigs and vaping. It all didn’t work.
She could do it if she wanted to do it but here we are four weeks later and we are barely talking past pleasantries.
I am going to pee my pants but I was hoping to wrap up this blog post before I went pee and well, that just isn’t going to happen.
Ok, much better.
I have decided that I am going to do a little updating on my room decor. I’ve decided that I am going to ditch the primary colors and go for a Tiffany blue and gray. I still want to have splashes of silver. Oh! Maybe a little white here and there. I think that it will be a good change. Things have been the same in my room for a year now and it will feel good to do something different.
I have been spending more time in my room because I like to lay down or at least just be in my bed while I’m reading and that’s been more and more recently. I also need to get a new blanket and some new pillows. It’s definitely time for an update.
I may also move my room around. I’m not so sure about that though. I should say that I’d like to move my room around but it’s not very big and I’m not sure what kind of options that I have.
I may push my bed up against the wall. Right now the head is against the wall but the rest of the bed is in the middle of the room. I really liked it for a long time but now I’m thinking that it’s time for a change. I’m going to play around with it a little and see what I can come up with. I’d love to have a chair or something in there to sit in and read but I don’t know how I would swing that.
Oh! Maybe a bean bag!?
I also want to find a new window treatment for the large window in my living room. I really like what’s up there now and I would consider moving it into my bedroom, although it’s not going to match the theme that I am going for.
It might be a nice splash of color through during the summertime when I have my curtains open.
This is also what I do when I am manic. I like to change around my atmosphere. I think that every spring since I have lived here, that I’ve changed my bedroom.
But, you know what?!
It’s something that keeps me productive instead of destructive.
Plus, it’s a lot of fun to try and figure out how to reuse, recycle and re purpose things. It’s fun to decorate on a budget.
I downloaded Pinterest again so I’ve been going through my boards and pulling ideas from the things that I have pinned. I have a bedroom board so it’s been a perfect place to find new ideas.
I can’t believe I have to go to bed soon which really means that I’ll probably have a bout of insomnia tonight and not sleep at all!
I can totally see that happening.